We had a family BBQ yesterday and despite me insisting to myself that I would stick to chicken, salad and a pitta bread... I didn't. Whoops. I had 2 burgers and 2 sausages. And a slice of gateau! I still only had 1350 calories for the day though so I shouldn't have done too much damage. I'm 1lb up on the scales today but I think that's because it was quite carby, I normally put on for a day and then lose it the next, so hopefully I'll be back down tomorrow.
I was thinking about this earlier and I realised, actually, I don't feel guilty for eating any of what I ate yesterday. When I did the Cambridge Diet I felt bad about anything that I ever ate and I've realised that that's just not healthy. It didn't help my relationship with food, at all. Whereas now I'm responsible for what I eat. If I choose to go over my calories for the day, that's fine, that's my choice. I've not cheated, I've not broken the rules, I've made a choice. This is going to be a long road for me and I'm not going to sit here and feel guilty every time I eat a piece of cake or a bar of chocolate. That's not the life that I want. If I'm going to eat something that's not very healthy, I'm sure as hell going to enjoy it and NOT feel guilty because I'm not going to do it too often! But the minute I start refusing to let myself have the things I enjoy, every so often in moderation, that's the minute this change of lifestyle goes out the window. I stop enjoying it and I start resenting it. So yes, I went over 1200 calories yesterday and yes, I ate big fatty burgers and sausages and no, I didn't stick to just chicken but you know what, I don't care. I had a great day and I'm not going to let guilt or regret spoil it today. I just did a longer DVD workout instead and might go for a walk later!
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